I am thankful beyond words for the miracle his surgeons were able to perform on him. There just aren't enough words to express my gratitude. I love each of my children the same but then they also each hold a special place in my heart. My oldest - she made me a Mother. She taught me what unconditional love is. My sweet Audrey, she's my Angel. Plain and simple. She taught me how to pick myself up when I didn't think picking myself up was even an option. Then there is Owen. He's the rainbow at the end of a very dark storm for me. His smile melts my heart and gives me that feeling I never knew I could feel again - happiness. 
Every time I look at his scar, it breaks my heart to see what he had to endure just to grow and be a normal kid like everyone else. No baby should ever have to go through what our cranio babies have had to. When the OR Nurse came to us and had to take him back for surgery, part of me wanted to grab him and run and never look back. To me, he was perfect. I love him no matter what. But my heart knew that he deserved a chance at a better life and if he didn't have the surgery, he wouldn't have that. My love and strength (that I credit to my Angel giving me) allowed me to hand him over to the OR Nurse and just.... trust. 
If you come across my blog because your child has been diagnosed with craniosynostosis, I want you to know a few things... One, it's OKAY to be scared. It's okay to cry. Two, babies are so resilient. Your little one will blow you away with how well they recover from this... and most importantly, every new milestone they reach is another confirmation that making the decision to do the surgery is the RIGHT choice.
Today is my 25th birthday and I've spent so much of my time today reflecting on my life and looking at my beautiful children, focusing on the wonderful things that I have been blessed with in my life. <3
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