We have a date!

Eye surgery is scheduled for May 3rd.

If I could wipe May off the calendar - I would.

May 5th, 2009 we lost Audrey forever.

May 2010 - I was pregnant with Owen. The one joyful thing in my life at the time.

May 27th, 2011 - Owen had a major 4 hour cranial vault reconstruction and frontal orbital advancement at Akron Children's Hospital.

May 3rd, 2012  - Eye surgery

When is it going to end?!? 

I tell myself every time I get down that I am doing this and fighting so hard for him because losing Audrey was a battle I couldn't win, there was NOTHING I could do to bring her back. From the second I was lying on that table and heard that there was no fetal heart activity.... I couldn't change it.

When we heard Owen was born with coronal craniosynostosis, while it was devastating and crushing, I knew I would do everything in my power and fight with every fiber of my being to do whatever is needed to fix this. I love him no matter what but I also love him so much that I want the absolute best for him and his development.

Being back in that waiting room will be like de ja vu... like reversing time and going back to that waiting room one year ago... but I know this is what needs to be done and I know my little boy will rock this surgery too! 

I am so damn proud to be his Mother!